Fuckin chill 😎
#Tshirt #Paramore #tired #studygrouplater #backin #civvies (at Marine Barracks, Goodfellow AFB)
Fuckin chill 😎
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By far the best #pizza I’ve ever had from @dominos!
#pizzapics (at Marine Barracks, Goodfellow AFB)
I have a lot of mental problems. I’m not a perfect person in any way. Ill admit to flirting a lot, that’s on me.
Every person that has ever been there for me has been a girl, 2 girls saved my life, and those 2 probably know more about me then anyone could ever possible know, even if I tried telling everything.
Even being around girls so much it’s really hard for me to really show affection. I get nervous with kissing, I get nervous with receiving hugs and even just holding hands gets to me. I’ve been in 1 actual relationship ever and it wasn’t what I’d hoped for. Every relationship I even come close to goes to shit. I’ve lost so many of the people that were there for me because of how tough I was to handle through my “depression/angry years”. It tears me apart.
Every girl I fell in love with faded away… I spend every day thinking that no one loves me and that in never gonna be happy with anyone. And after Friday my mind has never hit the point that its at since I “fixed” myself 3 years ago. The most memorable moment of affection isn’t a kiss or anything and not even with the girl I dated. It’s a hug I got from my best friend Ariana my sophomore year when she ran down the street bc was so happy to see me after summer vaca. She ran to me, jumped, and hugged me.
I don’t push for hugs or kisses or hand holding and I don’t care about having sex. I pray and I hope for just 1 hug or kiss or a minute to hold a girls hand bc I have never had the actual opportunity to be truly happy in that sense with anyone.. And now going to Japan I have never been so afraid for anything in my entire life. I am who I am because of the people who have been brave enough and strong enough to just look deep at how broken I am and help me. Because from just a glance, even my closest friends can’t see what’s going on inside..
#tbt to some #amazing pre- #MarineCorps days. I #love you #guys and #girls tons. I can’t wait to see you all! #memories #Hamilton #NewJersey #home